The Burr Queen


I have spent the last 42 hours at beautiful, peaceful Our Lady of the Mississippi Abbey in northeastern Iowa. I have walked, slept, prayed, read, sketched, and avoided nearly all human contact. Aside from a few texts to check in, I have used my phone exclusively as a camera. It has been the perfect birthday gift for this extreme introvert from my awesome husband.

I feel refreshed, rested, and renewed.

And a tad bit rattled.

The silent, undistracted peace has made me realize that I have unknowingly become The Burr Queen.


A few weeks ago, we went camping with some wonderful family friends. Our 6 kids, who are collectively louder than 8 overcrowded preschools, had a blast. They ran around, created tin foil instruments, had a parade, explored and got lots of bumps and bruises tripping over guy-lines. They also ran through burrs.

All of the kids had a handful of burrs stuck to pants, socks and sleeves. But as we were getting changed for bed, I realized that one shirt was completely covered in burrs. When I questioned the owner, she told me:

I put them there, as decoration. I wanted to be The Burr Queen.

I sighed, trying not to be irritated. How could she not see what an unnecessary mess she was making! So much extra work!

Together we spent the better part of an hour removing all those tiny little burrs.


As I come to the end of my time of silence and reflection, I am ashamed to realize that I have been doing the same thing. Adding burrs to my life, slapping them on without thinking. In the midst of my life, I am proud of my burred-bedecked garments. I keep finding more to stick into the empty spaces. I think they are adding value, that they help make me happier, more successful, more peaceful, more productive, a better mom or friend or wife or Christian. Because I listen when our society says that survival mode is inevitable, that busyness is a sign of success. That burrs are a necessary part of life.

But in the end, when I have a chance to step back and look at myself without distraction, I can see they are just burrs. They snag the fabric, hide in seams, get snarled in hair, and sometimes are pushed so deep, that little pieces get left permanently behind.

The tricky thing is, burrs aren’t bad. They just don’t belong on my clothes. They belong in the ground, producing green plants and beautiful flowers.


This trip has made me realilze that it is nearly impossible for me to identify burrs while in the midst of my life. Because I am so impulsive, so easily distracted, so exhausted by human interaction, I just get caught up in and worn down by daily life. I grab at whatever is closest, whatever seems good, or whatever has worked in the past without really examining what I am doing. And what was a green sprout or blooming flower for me before, has become a burr without my even realizing it.

So I have begun the arduous process of finding and removing the burrs and putting them where they belong.

I had a lovely, inspiring conversation with Sister Carol yesterday, learning about her life and reflecting a bit on my time. She said:

It sounds like you need to make this type of retreat a regular occurrence.

Yes. I do.

Getting Fancy!

In light of my post last week, I’ve been thinking a lot about rest and where I find calm in my life. I realized a strange part of my routine that I’ve unknowingly, over the years, made to be relaxing and enjoyable.

I love getting fancy. Image-1

As a singer, I have to get fancy often. I have to put on performance makeup, do my hair, and put on dresses and gowns on a regular basis. During the season, this happens multiple times a week. I used to find this annoying and time consuming, but I’ve slowly turned the prep time into a type of artistic and creative outlet. Because I have to have fancy hair so much, I try to make it a little different every time. Since I’ve never been one of those girls who was good at doing hair or makeup, it’s been trial and error. It can end in utter frustration, walking out the door just hoping no one looks too closely at my hair-do or making an epic error in eye liner judgement. I’m also starting to try out different styles and colors of gowns and dresses. Thanks to my more fashionable roommates, I usually don’t make terrible choices in that department. And I also get to have my hair and makeup done by ridiculously talented professionals when getting ready for big performances.

Side note: Some days I pinch myself when I remember that my job entails dressing up in beautiful dresses and costumes and getting my hair and makeup done. As a good friend of Kristin’s once said: “Little Laura would be SOOOO proud of Big Laura.” In case you didn’t know me back then, here’s just a taste of what I was like as a child.

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I used to tease my mom about the amount of time it takes her to get ready in the morning. She would put on The Today Show and slowly get ready for the day, while I would rush through the process. However, I have now followed in my mother’s footsteps (minus the Today Show). I can still get ready in 15-20 minutes if necessary, but automatically give myself an hour and a half every morning to shower, drink my coffee, make my breakfast shake and sack lunch, and try out different makeup products or hairstyles, all the while watching mindless tv or listening to a sermon or podcast. There also might be a little dancing that happens, too. This has become my “Me Time.” Work is highly interactive and since I have roommates, often my evenings are spent talking with them. My mornings and performance primping times are when I slow down and spend time alone during the week. The side of me Imagethat likes routine and stability also loves the regularity of the process; it’s something I can count on to be part of each and every day, no matter what my schedule looks like or what major performances are happening that day.

I hate that this probably makes me more high maintenance than I would like to admit and I (apparently) feel the need to reiterate that I CAN get ready fast. I simply hate the feeling of being rushed and the fear of being late. I am obsessively early to everything, which I’m sure is obnoxious to anyone going places with me or to people who invite me to parties.

Regardless, primping time has become a daily gift in my life. I was going to end this post by including a link to Iggy Azelea’s video of “So Fancy,” as I often sing that one line, “I’m so fancy,” in my best Iggy voice, when I’m feeling particularly fancy. However, I watched it for the first time and realized I’d never really listened to the whole song and I kind of hate it. So, I will not be putting that link here. Feel free to google as you see fit. 😉

  

 

Morning Shake!

So, when Kristin first came up with the Fabulous Friday idea, she mentioned the idea of sharing recipes that we love IMG_2461and use often in our respective lives. I found myself automatically laughing at the suggestion, as this would consist of me telling you how to cook rice, microwave a potato, or make a sack lunch of a sandwich, pea pods, and greek yogurt with frozen blueberries. I believe that I am cursed in the domestic area of cooking because ALL of the men in my family are amazing cooks. My dad (and mom), uncle, brother, and brother-in-law are extremely creative and impressive cooks. Sorry, Future Husband, looks like you’ll need to have that cooking thing down. Don’t worry, I bake a mean cookie!

However, I have recently found my way to a delicious, healthy, and filling breakfast option, which I’ve started including as part of my everyday routine. It keeps me full till lunch and helps me get fruits and veggies every day. It’s also AMAZING after a hard workout.

1 cup, packed, baby spinach

1 scoop of protein powder of choice

1/2 cup of plain greek yogurt

1/2-3/4 of a frozen banana

5 or 6 whole frozen strawberries

3/4 cup of frozen blueberries

1/2 cup of water

Blend well with whatever blender you have on hand. I recently got a NutriBullet and it is AMAZING! Enjoy!

Two sisters. Divergent lives. Exposing the fabulous. Savoring the common. Eliminating the Fear Of Missing Out.